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this is LONG i think. i think capricorns are dangerous people. we have great determination and we have the ability to be oblivious to all surroundings when pursuing this certain goal. Its not that we dont know, we dont care. the thing is once set all out to get it, the decision may be made on impulse, we dont look back and think twice if this is really what we want. and seriously, getting the goal isnt quite all that hard if we set ourselves to get it, we will keep driving ourselves even if its against morale or the law even if its not what we want, thats not the point. the point being, doing it. the satisfaction of achieving it, not the prize itself. not all caps notice this in them. not many, rather. thats why a lot of times they look like they dont know what the hell theyre doing. caps also dont know themselves very well. we dont ask if thats really what we want. we just assume and think that, that is what we want. Caps are very strong people. and that can be a bad thing. . the reason for the above is partly because recently ive started consulting myself rather than going through the whole thing blindly. kinda like asking myself to stop and see if im on the right lane, in fact i kinda think i missed a lot of turnings. a lot of caps dont do that. cos doing that means reassessing of priorities and wants which is much of a hassle to us; painful in fact to realise that what ive been chasing is not what i want. and all the efforts gone down the drain so usually we jst drive str8 through something like. i could make myself oblivious to the pain and just go on and be a businesswoman. but that is seriously not what i want. so now, ive u-turned back and i really cant decide when i'll like to turn. which this is where all the crap about 'losing my sense of direction' but the fact is that, the direction never was right. so bloodehh ironic. i dont think i can communicate very well with myself partly is because ive never done that. so in fact, i dont know myself very well. i think aud and jol wld actually know myself better than myself. so its kinda like. i dont know if i am even likable. hehh. -- this airhead angmoh bimbo came into charlie and asking to buy the purple alenxendar nea's dress. bimbo: "like, where do you suppose i can wear it? cos i like. really like it? but the only thing is like. i really dont know where i can wear it?" fyi, the dress is really pretty la. one of the few pcs that i actually like. but i was a bit stunned too, that she's such a bimbo. i mean! you can wear that bloody dress anywhere. shes a bimbo anyway. she can wear it for qing ming jie, nobody will say anything. me: "you can wear it to dinners, parties and clubbing too" bimbo: " do you like. think. i can wear it shopping?" then she gave me this innocent look like she really dont know if she can wear it to shopping or not. sia la! its YOUR dress. i dont care if you wore that $215 dress to sleep or not! and she said ----- was really nice and sweet. i cant help but think ----- is just as bimbotic as our bimbo is. airheads. get a life. 10:46 am powered by blogger |
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