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Once opinion is fixed, it is very tough for you to change anything. They say first impression counts because it is human nature to take in whatever that's in front. It is so much easier, not needing to think aint it? I was gonna say, I am no longer the person that I was when I was 13. Damn absolutely true. I was so ignorant then, causing all kinds of problems and lost all kinds of friends ; the good and bad ones. Some I dont really mind but others I do. A handful of them even. but we cannot turn back time and i just need to hope things improve between us. I seriously didnt know what was i doing, basically dumping my life away. We could have had something more, something good (mainly because we click and work so damn well tgt). If i had taken whatever you gave, if only. There is this problem with me. I realised the pattern with Jol when i called her today. she said something along the lines "why call me for huh? want to go out issit?" no, i didnt take offense with that dripping sacarsm, its our daily fix. However, it struck me that practically all of the time, she asked me out. Hardly had I ever ask her. And actually, i DO want to chill out with her but i am letting her do all the job and I complain that she is starting to neglect me. wrong, neglect is a wrong word because jol would never do that. RIGHT? *glares. It doesnt happen only with jol. It happens with shawn too. everytime he tried, i reject flatly. not because he isnt good looking or unattractive, just a tendency to reject. and its not even like i dont want to go out with him. even for housefly king xavet, everytime he says hi or trying to keep interupting me I would wave him off like he was contagious. and if youre gonna ask me if i have a problem with accepting, i do. i have a problem to even accept that my friends love me, do they or do they not? DO YOU JOLENE? do you STEPH? and oh jol, think we discuss this before. but i still want to tell you that i didnt hang out with you by default, or by because i just knew you for my whole life. I hang out with you because i want to. OH YEAH, I DO, BELIEVE ME spaceboy. 3:11 am powered by blogger |
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