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breathe dammit. why is the show progressing oh-so-slowly ?! It is taking up my time and my feelings. Makes me spend the whole night and day thinking about the bloody show until 8pm every single night! yes, the cliff hanger is working dammit well. thank you. i dont even want to go for accounts tomorrow! the thickness of the bloody course notes plus the new book we suppose to get is freaggin the hell out of me. so damn bloody thick. dammit. really. getting over is not about forgetting. i once spent 5 bloody years of my life yearning for somebody. i can swear it definitely isnt infactuation. you dont infact for 5 years. so we tried to work and it and guess what happen in the end? we ended it. i dont even know how do i start describing it. i didnt cry when it ended, neither was i surprised when i felt nothing. you just get over it after the initial mourning period. so what happens? i love her but i am not in love with her anymore. i know what she is doing and i do have someone watching her back in school but i dont keep in touch that regularly. she knows where to find me when she needs me. and that will be enough. the person is gone but memories stays. every other person whose been in love understands this. at the start, it will keep coming back. but if you allow yourself to heal, you will find one day where you stop going through all of those. the time to mend for everybody is different. i didnt take long but that isnt because i didnt love her much. you might love the person a lot but when its over, you know its over and you might not need a lot of time to be ok. it does not measure up this way. for example, you might wake up one day in bed with your husband or wife on the other side of the bed and it just suddenly hits on you that this person is not THE person. you might love this person a lot to the moon and back. but somehow, it isnt the person. so? do you moan, laugh or cry? long time or short time? do whatever you deem fit. everybody has got their own way of healing, mourning. some people may accept things faster and that isnt a problem. as long as you are sure of it. then its okay. aint it? my ankles are creaking, my back is aching and my right arm does not even feel like mine. dammit. and i dont want the nightmares to come. Oh please God. hear my pleas. Jol says i am stressed. i am vexed because i am so bored. what's that supposed to be about baby ya'll free up ya mind and stop actin crazy sean paul u'll give ya the good lovin daily now you try and pull that got me actin shady 1:11 am powered by blogger |
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