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Every beginning is an ending. As i am starting to write, it is ending. simply because i am delivering my pc and solamente. the person you know for your whole life might one day be as strange as the person sweeping the floor. or your lover might be a stranger in disguise with these possibilities never ending, how can i expect to trust a person or put my faith into him/her, or as how marriage put it, spend my life with him/her? It is very interesting to see how complex humans are. What you see is usually the one you dont see contradicts with you are what you see or it is it what you see. Or is it? I dont believe in simpleton. I have never anyway. To me, even a simpleton isnt that simple. What he is thinking in his brain is the one you dont see, so is he really the simpleton he looks he is? There is a saying that goes like, a full bucket of water doesnt sound but half a bucket does. or is it? Does half a bucket of water not have any inside voices? Like i said, what you see is what you usually not see. You see that half a bucket of water has no brain but you do not see the brain. In fact, most half bucket has more brains than full bucket. My parents finally realised that fact, not too long ago. Eli being the full and i being the half. Forever, they thought it is my sister the one whose quiet. Now, then they realised the one whose noisy all the time is quieter than the quiet. All along it has been the reversed, but like what i said, what you see is what you dont see. No matter how good i am at knowing the personalities of the person by looking at his/her body language, it is impossible to formulate what his/her other personaality is like, unless i have seen it myself. And what usually opposite is very scary, indeed. (it may not the the opposite; being the second nature or other side. it might be the 3rd or 4th side or maybe 10th side). * It is impossible to like someone at first sight simple because there is too much uncertainty. should true love be the way like in JM's stories or am i reading too much of them? Or maybe, there is no such thing in the world? I am very extremely irritated with the teasing in class. Which is part of my reluctance to attend a co-ed school. Friendship somehow cannot be existed between two persons of the different sex or can they? Looking at the way James talks to Rachel in class, it can be seen that he in interested in her. And then? End of story for me. but not for those suckerfish. * i have been playing the song evelyne send me for about the 100th consecutive time. its a indo band called tofu and the song is cinta semu. which means fake love. and besides that, i have no idea of what the song means but it is your regular pop song which refuses to go away once you hear it. am i just being analytical or am i a little mental? i have no idea. maybe everyone is mental at some stage. or is it? Ever since i met saito again this jan and march, my fav phrases are pratically "maybe" or " i dont know". which happens to be his too. well, i thought that was a good point because it is a very smart way of diverting. * Whilst among all the uncertainty, to find someone worthwhile is golden. And through a small lesson, I have understood what someone once told me. And i will remember it from now on. Plus, there is this someone i want to thank but i havent formulate the formula of thanking her. She is a tough nut to crack but i dont know if she knows i am talking about her. Materialistic stuff in this case doesnt apply because there simply aint this thing between us. All i can say is the guy who marries her is damn damn dammit lucky. his lucky star must be shinning damn bright. haha. so if you think i am talking about you.. you might want to ask me if its you. ;) hahaha * there is no purpose in typing the above statements. neither is it directed at anyone. I am just expressing my insecurity. and not petty insecurity like wondering if my bf cheats on me. aye. OK. enough of tofu's cinta semu. - THE END- 4:25 pm powered by blogger |
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