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there's no such thing as a mistake. its just what you do and what you dont do. my life have been a total flip side ever since i came back from japan. technically, it should be from the start of cny. I havent had time to do things (all the talk about doing things you always wanted to do during holis). i dont even have time. and soon, i will probably be working 6 full days a week. That hardly leave me any time for anything. Life's busy, just for now. It might change when the results comes out. :S so, besides working, its steph and xy leaving. :'( Dont even start to ask me, i cant even begin to describe how i feel. They two are like one of the closest of aminos to me. And both are leaving for aussie. Its like, when they are back from there, what will happen? Will be still be as close or will be drift and revert to the live we had in p5? Well, didi and jol seem to be ok but not as close anymore, but heck. jol works so much, i hardly knows how she can tahan it man. there is something i have yet to know. Are some people just born that way and that they are unable to appreciate finer things in life? Not just finer but finer things in life. For example, peace, animals, etc. even slience. Silence speaks, very loudly, then again. silence dont equal to awkwardness or lonliness. its important to hear what silence is telling you, because it helps you realise and understand why things happen this or that way and it aids you in figuring out yourself. some people, or their whole life, they dont have a goal. Ok, many might not have a goal in life. they just want to be able to eat, be healthy. but is life that simple? a lot of times, its so rushing and never ending, it makes you think, where is the ending? What will happen if i just decide to end everything now. how do you live, by your goal being as moronic as "being able to survive"? On the other hand, some people dont even know what they are working towards. And i am even more surprised that they are still happily staying around, almost oblivious to their surroundings. Then again, is life simple that way? Than always setting goals, aiming for it, set to work for it and acheiving it? What do you get after getting the goals? I have goals, long and short term of course. Is it just me, but i find no satisfaction in acheiving the target. Maybe my approach in life is wrong, or maybe their approach is wrong. I dont know. the brain is a scary thing. it kinda sets how the personality is because of the way the brain thinks. You cant get 2 people exactly the same. and it makes all more scary. because the brain is so comples that you almost cant expect how the person might act in a certain situation. Imagine you spend 20 bloody years with a fella as your husband and one fine day, you realise that he's not the guy you had in mind, he is the guy you thought he was, but the facts are around he isnt. I cant imagine spending my whole life with a guy whom i knew just for 3 years or so. But then again, they say once you know its him, its him. that's what they call mr right. or another situation, the mother and the child. there might be one fine day the mom sees the child for who he is and not for what the mother wants him to be. Many are like that. " i want my child this way, i want her that way, etc etc" then again, like i said, the brain's so complex you cant exactly craft our a child the way you want it, that will equal to manufacturing a robot, aint it? many times, we need to see people for who he/she is not for how we think he/she is. Its hard on both parties this way. One of the stuff silence tells me, is that to see people for who she is. she is made this way, then i cant change. some people fall in love because they want to change the person. its impossible. it unchangeable. and that makes it all worse because if i cant get along with this certain person, i just cant. you cant force people to do things your way because your way might not what people deem as suitable. other people have other ways that might be equally or more effective. there comes in communication. unfortunately, people of this century only knows how to speak and not listen. Listening is an important factor we change dismiss. so why not we try to listen more. no, i'm not asking you to change. i am just simply suggesting that we might want to listen to others and yourself before action. wont that make the world a much better place? 2:43 am powered by blogger |
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