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shadows his journal entires and typically sad fuse with the sad love ballads playing on my stero now Its enough to awake a sense of lonliness within me. Not that i ever put it to rest but i try to keep it out of sight, out of mind as much as possible. I fear rejection. but what i really fear the most is lonliness. Anything with regard to that word. - someone came up to me, in school, to tell me whatever she wanted to tell me. Firstly, if you are reading this, i have to say i admire your guts. Secondly, thank you because i really appreciate what you said to me. but i hope i am worth more than just being a face. Well, being around for so long, i've got a little pc of advice. Physical appreance is important, i'm not lying. It would also be right if we said that by judging soley on your physical appreance will immedietly determin the chances and oppurtunity offered to you. Its only human nature if others judges because your physical appreance is what they first see. I have been judged before and i know the feeling. If they dont give you a chance how are they suppose to know what you really are made of right? Here's my point. Physical is one thing. But there is yet 2 more important factors for you to harp on in life. relations and contents. If you have relations, it would bring you far. Because there will be people who are willing to give you chances and opportunities. believe me, i've met them. and if they see what you can do, then i think despite whatever you fall victim to in the first place will probably not make a such great impact. If you have contents, then be not afraid. zhen cai shi laio. what are you still afraid of? You are in a very good school, i see no reason to doubt anything. It took a while for me to work everything out, and it hadnt come easy. Its all hard work, and i am still working towards my long and short term goals. If you are willing to work, i bet you will find whatever i have now (or more) in your hands. Make sure of what is you really want then plan how to go about doing it. If you are still quite blur, dont hesitate to contact me. On a more personal note, I have been victimised quite badly before. It took a while for me to heal and come back to life. I can only thank God for all the things he gave me. Friends, teachers, chances and everything else. Also, i actually see no reason to slim down in anyway, if not for health reason that is. - didnt i tell you i aged 6 years to my already mature brain? this year i am advice to think less and be more magnanimous than i already am. The problem is that i am filled with melancholy by nature so how am i suppose to think less? although it was a weird time to travel to japan. I am glad i didnt. because there i learnt, by far, the most important lesson in my life and i am blessed that i met him. He gave me the best advice by far, something i would never forget. Thank God for Watanabe san. 1:43 am powered by blogger |
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