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usually, when my mum comfirms my year end holiday destination, i would usually jump for joy when i hear hongkong. but not this very time. no, i dont mean i dont like it there anymore. actually, i think its fabulous. Because i'll be going in december (no matter which week actually), the temperature drops. but the problem here is that i think my understanding and language skills have dipped a considerable lot. to put it simply, i think my standard of canto have dropped. I was listening to a song by hacken lee, a song that i never hear before. and i couldnt understand. i had to listen for more than 10 times. Ok, partly his voice is kinda muffed because of the lousy quality. but the fact that i needed to listen to it for 10 times before i actually got what he was mumbling and singing about does not change. and that is enough to cause a frenzy. That aside, you may think i am dumb, but i seriously hope to catch the same plane as hacken lee. his concert is on the 22nd. and i am leaving on the 30th. I mean, if i had accepted to the initial day of departure, the possibility of meeting him is higher. which person in the right mind, would want to stay in singapore for a week more? They have come here for their promotion, and next is the rehearsals (which i cant catch them at the air port nor hanging ard at the indoor because i am having my Os). ok, enough. i need someone to snap me out of this. i was like that when i fell in love with pippo. but i am still like that now even when i talk about pippo. so does it mean, i wont get out of this? am hooked to the tv nowadays that i cant seem to force myself to do my work anymore. 8-845 : bu kao bu chen yuan jia ( haha, shouye and wasabi &co are funney) 9-945 : jue shi hao ba (CHEN QI TAI!!! ) 10 - 1030 : nan qin nu ai i am glad channel 55 replays nan qin nu ai, what's more its half an hr. but i bet after my Os, the show will be over. so, this time my trip to hongkong, i need to buy 1) nan qin nu ai VCD, 2) jue shi hao ba VCD, 3) jiang shi 2000 (i think this is the title) VCD, 4) anything on hacken lee. plus, update myself seriously the next fashion trend. buy new bags, shoes, make ups, accessories, hair bands. i like to have a shopping list whilst in hk, but this time, i am not looking forward to it. another reason being, when i finally board the plane, it seriously mean that the bulk of my school + growing years are over. and in a months time from that point of time, i am 17. how soon is that? what do people do when they are 17? what do they do when they have 6 free months on their hands? they dont wake up at nasty 6.30am everyday to school. neither do they open the books and pia nor do they see their friends, talk& joke everyday. i dont want to shop everyday. i dont want to do naught. I want my friends. baseline : i dont want to leave the jayjaxjags, i want to meet them, joke with them have fun with them everyday. but creamy, xy and aud seems to be flying. left me, cia and gg in poly. yz in a JC ( i have no idea where jol and jas wanna go) and pesky still in school, waking up at the agonising 630am. And where does that leave us? what will happen when i join steff, xy and aud 3 years later? would they grow closer to their new friends? and where will i stand? what exactly will that leave me? would they be all close up to their new friends? what abt gg? is she gonna be detached when she decides to join another poly that differ from me and cia? how would yz do in her JC? so many questions left unanswered. but i still have faith in us remaining as good friends because i was once detached from jol but yet now, we are still good friends. yet another example is me and nat. we were besties and what happened now? i dont even know what exactly is happening in her life except for bits and parcels, hell, i dont even know her anymore. it somehow do seem like i am lazy to make new friends. however, i am not. but it takes long time and great pains to get back what i had with the jayjaxjags. maintaining a good friendship with all 9 of them isnt easy work. It takes time for all parties. my new friends may not be as accomodating as lama, as lola-ish as xy, as white as creamy, as double personalities as gg, as spongeybob as yz, as gum-my as jol, as pesky as june, as fun as jas and as hardworking as cia. i am like a child. whinning to eat the candy yet wanting the candy to stay the same shape forever because i like the flavour and that particular stick. it just aint the same with others. but, saliva has amylase which digest the sugar/ starch in the candy. just like now, we have grown up. and its time to let go, as what we had will always be left as memories in all our hearts. i quote " why cant we bloody stay at 15?" i refuse to listen to the song graduation by vitamin C. why did she had to sing that song? got back results today. dont be shock, but they moderated 7 points down for me. with my ENGLISH AND CHINESE BOTH HANGING IN THE AIR WITH A FUCKING -9( no, i dont mean a F9. but i mean the marks. i like round numbers. numbers like 80, 70 but not 74, 69, 79, 64, 59, 84, etc because they mean i am 1 pathetic mark from another grade). why did they had to do that? they couldn have moderated, but they didnt. and kok almost scared me to tears today, saying moderation could go down my 10 marks. with my 77 becoming a 67. but lucky she said she had been strict with us and our work are uniformed. so if one person goes up by 3 marks, we all do. and she say, it will definitely go up, (since she is strict in the marking) but it wouldnt be a 10 point gap. no i am not expecting that. but i am certainly hoping for a 5 marks increasment. completed november 1999 paper 1 tonight. gonna do paper 2 tomorrow. and full paper on sat and sun each. and two papers for next week, until my Os come. which in the mean time, i have to revise my fnn (start from tomorrow), start with my science(maybe next week, i hate science. i study like a mad cow and i get exam jitters), read abraham promise(tonight) + r&j( after i finish analysing and reading abraham), continue to write compos and letters (whenever i am free), and start chinese next week (preferbly wed) diploma in business (either banking&finance or BA in retail or whatever cia wants to do), degree in (the diploma i got) a masters in mass comm. these will be my qualifications when i get out of Uni in aussie. i am determinded to get them done. 1:33 am powered by blogger |
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