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As D-day is approaching, the tension gets higher and tighter. its getting harder and harder to breathe - You know, whenever i am going through something i hate, i usually think about the something else that is gonna happen after the thing i am suffering. And i make myself look back and try to feel what i will feel. Example, when i am in sensualite's hot blanket (which is really hot. a constant high of 75degrees for 30-45mins) suffering from hunger pangs, i will try to vision myself after it. How i would get my calcium drink as a reward and sneak down to basement 1 of bugis seiyu to get food to fill my empty growling frustrated stomach. Nowadays, i try to see myself in grad gown fussing around. And 3 days after that i have to get going (to HK, that is). and of course, i try to make out what i would feel(esp on the plane) but currently its all mixed up (every possible feeling, except hate and vengence, sour, bitter, and all related adjectives). Much as i want the day to come, i actually don't these thoughts came from my mum when she asked me in mandarin, " eh, your hotel booking how?" - I've got a couple of new hacken's old songs from xinni. but she abruptly go offline when i was in the midst of downloading the two best songs of hacken from her. but i dont think msn tolerate imcomplete files yeah? i hope she burn it for me in that cd. plus i got val's autograph book to write.and i feel honoured to do that because if she offer means somehow the person asked (meaning me) is someone significant in her life. and i am glad for that. :) anyone willing to sell a use laptop to me. of course, it must be working well (as in can use la. not horrible until i need to keep rebooting, dont cheat my money. i come from a house with computer geniuses graduating from MIT as masters). price as low as possible? i have no budget. so if you have, contact me okay? grazie. 2:34 am powered by blogger |
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