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seriously. after reading some random blog. i feel terribly bad. although i hate to admit. but i have to i want to be in PESA. i heard wonus brought props to enhanced her speech? my oh my. the many times i have said i wont want to do anything with speech anymore. the many times i have said debate and speaking toture me but i like it? no. i love it. a lot. truely a lot. i never expect it was so deep. but the fact that it is. and i cant hide or run away. i want to much to be in PESA now. part to support son. coz lee said many did their best? and i want it myself too. the fucking problem is i have no excuse. i used to say i wanted to prove to shushi and everyone who despised me before my debate glory. i did. and now. what do i have now to take part? nothing. one may say just my love for public speaking is enough. but the pain behind the scenes isnt something i can take everyday. it isnt something that tastes like sins choco or the fudge u took today. there need to be something that is big enough for me to push towards. something like proving my worth. for pure pleasure, i rather take candles and bathtub please. sorry for my ranting. i just felt that was a need. because when i read, i was almost close to tears. it's like the whole world taking part in what you hold value close to ur heart. esp something you hold for security and is good in it. ok. i guess its really seriously enough. and geraint wore orange and black today. yeah. it does contrast the orange. and makes him seem really orange. sometimes i wonder does he have fashion langa or he simply dont know what to wear to suit him best? and ac now wants a reason why my sis took her nametag. if she seriously dont want me to have it. i just gladly give it back to her. because once it's gone, it's gone for good. and i believe this time it is. and one more thing if ya all are confused. the emails. clarivoyance@hotmail.com is NOT mine. had a confusion with a fren. zeitgeist@journalist.com <--- teachers angelalee@europe.com <-- family and friends. kismet_me@hotmail.com is now purely for msn messanger and explorer purposes. :D 11:32 pm powered by blogger |
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