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i'm really stressed out. i hate that feeling. and today. we had math test. it was the worse 45 mins of my life. i understand how daphne felt during last yr's tests where she just slept through. not that we dont want to do well. It's just the interest is lost. and the feeling is gone. it's just like me during A Math test today. i really felt like sleeping. the weather is cool. my jacket is new and comfortable. perfect ambience for sleeping. prawny just had to off the fan.. lols.. making the temperature start climbing their way up the themometre. when finally bell rang. i went off early. she said who finish can go off. i went off. char came over. lucky. went up to her class to rot. din have recess. wow. it was a blessing man. no forcing of food. then back to lessons again. last two periods is history.. i slept thru. va said i slept so.. comfortably. so shoik haha. after sch, started painting the classroom. no lunch. went directly to interact at 3 from classroom.. vera bought ZOO biscuits. ate four. haha. then waited for driver when my sis went to buy ice cream. forced it down again. :l reched home at 5.30 slack till 6 plus. went out then. THE HORRIBLE THING IS... i forgot to wear short sleeve. man.. went back to change.. late for 20 mins. waisung waited for 20 mins and cheng waited for half an hr.. felt real bad. anyway. wasted a lot of time in between. reached little india at 7+ did the henna. waited for jenny till 8.30 went to eat at PS. wow. 6 person squeeze into a coupe.. hahaha. at ps macs. rot there. the macs pple gave an extra DOUBLE CHEESE BURER.. so stupid. we asked for all kinds of sauce. i mean everything. salt, pepper, sweet chilli, chilli, ketcup, mayo, sweet and sour, barbecue, curry.. wat else do they have? chatted abt tmr's wedding and all. xy smsed at 9+ asking abt lit. went we decide to go. ard 9.45.. open the top part of the coupe. spin ard orchard. pump petrl at shell. spin back home. real nice. wind and all. got interrupted 4 times. my mood took a deep plunge everything she calls. my cousins went up to my house. said hi to my dad. and HE DAOED THEM. i am really pissed at him. he dont even noe the story why we are late. or why we spend so much time and he assumed. wth? at least my mum did not scream today. i really dont noe wat is his problem. he dont even understand wat i am going thru but i do noe wat he is. i am not adjusting well to the sec 4 life. because i am new to it. and u cannot just expect i get use to it so early. time is needed. i try to do homework and hand in them on time. not a problem. but it really tires me out. they must understand. i am a 16 yr old going thru these things for the first time in my life. they always uses their experience and tell he WITH A SHURG that oh.. it's easy blah blah. i am 16! not 61! first time is always hard. i am learning the ropes. why does he ALWAYS forgets this point? i need to play to let out my stress too! i GOT MY OWN WAY.. why cant he just accept the fact that i DO NOT WANT TO LEARN HIS WAY? i have my own style of relieving stress and i love the way i do it. please dad. accept it. i got my life. i got my own friends. i spent time wif my cousins. bringing the bond closer. i got study. i relieve stress.. i am living this way. my own way and am happy wif it. please do not try to change me ok? there are a certain type of image form in parents head that is like " what i want my children to be like" or " the way i want my children to behave" or maybe " the 'proper' way i want my child to be like" parents must know that these are impossible to happen. my parents wants children to take care of them. to be nerds. score well. VERY well. get a U degree. find a good job. get married. have babies. quit my job. stay at home. till my children grow up and the cycle repeats. mum or dad. if u have this idea. u are very wrong. .take care of u two isnt much of a problem. score very well is not gonna happen. i am happy the way my marks are. get a degree. i told u i will do a degree? regarding jobs. i think i noe wat i have in mind. i am not a kid that is a nerd impossible to be one. no i DID not think abt her. i am too busy to have time to think. and i am suppose to do debate research now. but i totally have no mood. i am saying it again. i hate them. their way of life. everything. milan won!!!! played at verona. cheivo 2, milan 5!!!!! i love kaladze, sam dalla bona, seedorf(2), tomasson and rui who made a great impact and contribution. basically. they did not telecast the match. or else. they said it was a fun game. seeing the score line, u noe it wld be fun. and.. actually milan is sometimes very boring. because, they are too good. that their moves are so perfect.. that makes them fake. but i hope this will continue.... whaha 11:45 pm powered by blogger |
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